The Copenhagen Interpretation

How an Emergent Ventures meeting in the Danish capital produced optimism about our future

I was in Copenhagen this past weekend for a meeting of Emergent Ventures grant winners, most of whom were under thirty. I was the oldster among the group.

The whole thing was actually one intense conversation after another, ranging from projecting cellular phenotypes onto novel geometries to the drone innovation cycle in Ukraine. There was a 15-year-old French mathematical geniusโ€“we spoke at lunch using French so that he could explain more easily what he was working on. And there was a 22-year-old quant making her fortune in London. There was the Nigerian entrepreneur who lent me a USB-C cable to get me through an iPhone charging glitch. There was the dinner at the Odd Fellows Temple, an antique royal blue banquet hall filled with portraits of prominentโ€ฆwellโ€ฆOdd Fellows from the 19th centuryโ€“while I underwent the third degree about my neuroscience career from two twenty-something brothers who clearly were also pretty much geniuses at the intersection of math and maybe computer science. And finally there was the swim in the canalโ€“perfectly clean and filled with Danish citizens as well as fish. I left the meeting on a real (non-drug-induced) high.

Emergent Ventures is a โ€œfast grantโ€ outfit led by my friend and George Mason Colleague, Tyler Cowen. Since its beginnings in 2018, it has awarded something on the order of 1500 grants, all of them without the overwhelming bureaucracy and overhead that consumes the more normative granting systems. Iโ€™m one of those awardeesโ€“my funding supports this Substack being free. So thank you, Tyler.

What is it about youthful optimism that is infectious? And is that feeling real? It reminds me of a debate a century earlier, also in Copenhagen, between Bohr and Heisenberg on what the quantum mechanical wave function actually was: a human-created tool with fantastic predictive capabilities, or an actual physical thing in the universe. A synthesis came out of those old conversations between geniuses that we now call the Copenhagen Interpretation of Quantum Mechanics. What that is, in detail, is perhaps the subject of another Substack.

But for this weekโ€™s post, my question for you is whether the feeling that we humans can build a better world (still) is an artifact of that youthful energy from last week, or is it real? Well, reality can bite. As I was standing in a painfully long line at the airport to leave the Schengen Zone and return home to DCโ€“each screening with camera, border agent, and fingerprints took what seemed to be 2-3 minutesโ€“it seemed already that the answer to my question was no. Itโ€™s not real. The world is impossibly flawed. Even with AI tools, the technology world that we have built adds burden. But in that line, helpful airport workers were distributing water bottles and pulling folks out of the main line to make their departing flights. And when I arrived at Dulles yesterday evening, the Global Entry camera screen idโ€™d my face and sent me on my way without human interaction, perhaps within 2-3 seconds. It was only in the taxi later that I had the queasy feeling of Big Brother watching and knowing all. So the immediate aftermath of the meeting was mixed.

Back at the meeting, I had gone to one session, primarily for the European attendees, about how motivated individuals can work together to make their governments function more effectively. The group was very eclectic. There were some folks from across the political spectrum. But what struck me was how seriously they talked to one another, sketching out their ideas on a large white pad, with none of the trolling and posturing we have come to associate with those interactions. And the ideas for novel ways to improve governance were really good. Nor were they single-issue framed: maybe an approach we could try here in the US more.

But the sessions themselves werenโ€™t the secret sauce. Rather, it was the organizers who had set about using the meeting, technically an unconference, to create an entirely new social networkโ€“one that could never have emerged from the meeting participantsโ€™ own networksโ€“and what emerged, to my mind, is entirely novel and potentially quite powerful.

Emergent phenomena are the stuff of complexity science and the Institute that I led for sixteen years of my professional career. Think of the schooling behavior of fish emerging from individual brains and consequent behaviors. Or of how market crashes emerge from individual agent decisions about their own portfolios. All of these phenomena share the characteristic that the network itself, rather than its constituent agents, produces the emergent order or pattern. Well, thatโ€™s not quite correctโ€“itโ€™s an oversimplification. The agents do act. But itโ€™s their network topology with its nodes and edges that integrates the individual actions into one emergent output.

Most social networks among humans are somewhat fragmented. We hang with our friends. Occasionally, someone new joins our circle, but more often than not, itโ€™s the same old same old. Novel social networks, such as the one created afresh in Copenhagen this past weekend, break this pattern of fragmentation and produce new possibilities. In this case, the possibilitiesโ€“the potentialโ€“seem to me to be substantial. Why?

First, when older people, such as myself, interact directly with smart young people, it provides a bridge between the stuff of experience and the wisdom gained from it and the stuff of youthful energy and optimism. Above, I wrote about how I initially left the meeting feeling energized and positive about future outcomes. Whatโ€™s interesting to me is that the WhatsApp feed from the groupโ€™s younger participants mirrors my own feelings.

Second, the group brought together non-traditional approaches to traditional problems ranging from cancer to political governance. One independent young researcher was pursuing an entirely novel (as far as I could see) approach to large-scale data from the life sciences with the idea of revealing new functional connections that would be invisible using more common approaches.

Finally, it strikes me that this new network may have some of the fundamental characteristics of โ€˜small worldโ€™networksโ€“a subject for a future piece (stay tuned). If that were true, then my own view is that the fast information diffusion and resilience of this new network may be enhanced and the stuff that it produces as emergents might be all the more significant.

But back to the Copenhagen interpretation of 100 years ago. We still donโ€™t fully know whether the wave function is physical reality. Those famous physicists somewhat punted on the issueโ€“all while they debated furiously. And the reality of my own view for this group and the possibilities that might emerge? Also subject to debate. But my own contemporary Copenhagen Interpretation is that indeed the ingredients for positive real change are there.

But Wait, Thereโ€™s Moreโ€ฆ

How I was able to retain a superstar under less-than-ideal circumstances

Some details here โ€” names and offering institutions โ€” have been changed. The dilemma is real; the disguises are mine.

She had two NIH RO1 grants and a written job offer from an extremely prestigious Bay Area academic medical center. And she was in my office explaining the side deals that included subsidized housing and virtually zero teaching load. And my job? I needed to retain the human talent. As her dean at George Mason, at the time, not even an R1, I needed to persuade my nascent superstar that she should stay in Northern Virginia, with its awful summers and hellish traffic in her undersourced lab with its retrofitted offices and hallway alcoves. As a native Californian, I was well-versed in both the positives and negatives of the Golden State. But this really wasnโ€™t about lifestyle. It was about the futureโ€“both hers and our suburban state school on the make.

But I had a plan. And it got to the essence of the matter: job security versus prestige. It also depended on the accuracy of my assessment of her ambition.

โ€œJim, theyโ€™re offering a one-million-dollar start-up.โ€

โ€œAnd tenure,โ€ I responded, having read the letter myself.

โ€œAnd tenure, yes.โ€

โ€œAnd a condo overlooking the Presidio,โ€ I added.

โ€œYes, with the same square footage as our house in Fairfax,โ€ she answered enthusiastically.

โ€œThat sounds great, Kari. I donโ€™t think we can beat it on paper. But I do have one question for you.โ€

Silence for maybe ten seconds.

โ€œOK, so whatโ€™s your question?โ€

โ€œWhat do you think tenure means in that letter?โ€ 

This was the hook. I knew that tenure at the California offer was conditional. Sheโ€™d get her goodies as long as she had ample grant support. With her two NIH grants, Kari was in great shapeโ€“for now. Best case, sheโ€™d go on to win the Nobel Prize with a lab with all the bells and whistles. In the worst case, if for some reason her grants were ended, the Bay Area institution would terminate her employment and evict her from the nice housing.

She responded, โ€œIt means tenure, like here. Job security. Not having to worry about my family, our kids.โ€

โ€œNo dice, Kari. If you lose your grants here, you can always teach more college kids.โ€ Youโ€™re a great teacher, and your course load can pay your salary.โ€

โ€œBut that has nothing to do with my tenure,โ€ she answered indignantly.

โ€œWell, it kind of does. It allows us to offer you a tenure that you can take to the bankโ€“just like youโ€™re thinking about. Weโ€™re not going to go bankrupt on whether you have grants or not.โ€

A half hour later, I was pretty sure that Iโ€™d won. Kari wasnโ€™t willing to take the gamble on the prestige. She understood that โ€œtenureโ€ is a squishy term and that one of the key advantages of staying was that it meant what she thought it meant.

So letโ€™s zoom out. Academic tenure in the United States is an endangered species these days. But, even so, there are three different variants out in the wild. The first, the lifetime job-security one, is increasingly rare. Ultimately, it depends on an Institution, having some sort of collateral on your salary. At my place, the university can require me to teach more classes (with more tuition-paying students) until my salary is covered. If I were at the academic medical center as a physician professor with tenure, my place could require me to see more patients. But ultimately, the job-security version of tenure requires some financial backup in a situation where there is no grant success.

The second variant of tenure (a bit more common), especially for PhDโ€™s at teaching hospitals, is tenure as a hunting permit. In this version, tenure means you get to โ€˜eat what you kill.โ€™  This was the package that Kari was looking at. So, if you can pay your salary with grants, great. If not, then no money. And if you have half your salary from your grantsโ€“then thatโ€™s what you get. This formula is actually pretty similar to the professional business world of lawyers and lobbyists. 

And thereโ€™s a final variant, where tenure is an honorific. You get to say that youโ€™re tenured to your friends and maybe put it on your CV. But it means nothing in terms of financial obligations from your employers.

How can the same word, โ€˜tenureโ€™, have such different meanings across our science ecosystem? Ultimately, itโ€™s an accident of the history of science here in the US. When tenure was first rolled out in the 1940โ€™s, at many public and private universities engaged in STEM, the budget model was fundamentally based on tuition revenue (and state appropriations for public universities). These institutions were among the earliest to put tenure in place as a protection for faculty academic freedom, and they were able to do so because of their budget models. Later, as academic medical centers entered the equation, faculty salaries were much more dependent on โ€˜soft moneyโ€™ (grants). In addition, such medical institutions often have a high velocity of cash flow (from Medicare/Medicaid reimbursement for procedures) that makes faculty salaries a significant risk factor, one that can only be mitigated for those with M.D.s who can see more patients if required. When mandatory retirement at 65 was eliminated in 1994, the tenure equation became much more fraught for universities as there was no guaranteed end-point for the employment guarantee. Some places responded by changing the meaning of the term to purely a title rather than job security.

Kari was unaware of the extant tenure variants when she came into my office to play hardball. This was a crucial problem for her job negotiation strategy. Since I was very aware of her compensation package priorities, simply informing her of what the California package really entailed served my purposes: we retained her.

The social ecology of tenure is as important for Institutions as it is for people. There was no way our place could compete with the California institution on most concrete aspects of the compensation package: salary, benefits, start-up. But we could compete on the question of job security, and that turned out to be the critical factor. 

Itโ€™s worth pointing out that what happened with Kari wouldnโ€™t necessarily work in other cases. It was the intersection of her priorities with our ability to meet those needs. In a sense, I got her to articulate what she really needed: for tenure to mean what she thought it meant. 

I stated earlier that tenure is endangered here in the States. The deal that I was able to make with Kari probably won’t be available to deans in the future. In that future, institutions like George Mason are going to have a tougher time of it. As with the private sector, the market for talent will become a lot more transparent. And maybe thatโ€™s a good thing.

Michael Kratsio’s Frontier Vision

The 100 + page document is here. I’m still reading the report and will eventually react to it here on the blog (and not on my Substack). There are plenty of quick takes (no doubt aided by AI) out there.

July 23, 2026 After 24 hours to digest….

Every science policy document since 1945 has to decide what to do with Vannevar Bush. This one, Michael Kratsios’s new report to the President, pays Bush constant tribute while quietly taking aim at the institutions his 1945 report built. Strip away the “endless frontier” homage and what’s left is a fairly direct hit on Research 1 universities and academic medical centers โ€” the two pillars of the postwar system.

The report doesn’t say this outright. It doesn’t have to. The R01, the workhorse grant of American biomedical research, is described as a source of “systematic blind spots.” NSF is dinged for organizing itself “around academic disciplines, much as it did in the 1950s,” as though disciplinary depth were the disease rather than one input among several. And indirect cost recovery โ€” the mechanism that keeps AMCs and R1 physical plants standing โ€” gets reduced almost entirely to administrative bloat, with barely a nod to the clinical and research infrastructure it actually funds. That’s not a subtle target. Indirect costs are the financial bloodstream of every academic medical center in this country, and this report treats them as a tax to be cut rather than infrastructure to be understood.

None of this is argued against directly. Instead, the report builds a parallel architecture โ€” X-Labs, FROs, ARPA-style program managers, golden tickets โ€” and lets that architecture do the work of making the R1/AMC model look slow, captured, and unaccountable by comparison. It’s redirection of gravity, not a demolition charge. But gravity redirected long enough is still demolition.

I’m not reflexively defensive of the status quo here. I’ve run a research institute, sat on both sides of the review table for decades, and I know the diagnosis is largely right โ€” the twenty-month grant timelines, the graying PI pool, the incentive to armor good science in whatever language currently survives review. That’s real.

What bothers me is the sleight of hand in the prescription. The report wants to restore “merit” against the politicization of peer review, while simultaneously proposing to reorganize the whole federal portfolio around a different set of political priorities โ€” national security, reshoring, great-power competition. It never explains why one externally imposed priority corrupts science and the other doesn’t. That’s not an oversight. It’s the whole argument, left conveniently unresolved.

The one piece I’d take without hesitation is the golden ticket: let a single reviewer stake real conviction on an unconventional proposal, blind the review to institutional pedigree, and you might actually rescue the ideas that consensus panels are built to kill. I’ve watched strange, brilliant proposals die by committee for exactly this reason. Of everything in this report, that’s the one line item I’d install tomorrow.

So: a genuinely interesting vision of AI-catalyzed, mechanism-diverse science funding, built by quietly hollowing out the R1 and AMC model that has carried American research since Bush. Whether that’s a feature or a bug probably depends on which side of the review table you’ve spent your career sitting on.

The Napkin

My dinner with Ronald Reagan yielded an unexpected lesson

The future POTUS refused the interview request. I was phoning up to his room from the dated lobby of the Lord Jeffrey Inn, a place named after an alleged British war criminal, now renamed the Inn on Boltwood. It was my chance for a huge scoop โ€” he was visiting Amherst College with his son, on the grand tour that some American parents take their teenage children on in anticipation of higher ed.

The dejection immediately dissipated when he invited me to dinner instead. Dinner with Ronald Reagan: a two-fer โ€” the Innโ€™s restaurant was the best place in town, and I had a feeling that the former California governor, now in the thick of his primary challenge against Gerald Ford, was headed for higher office. But ten minutes later, when I dumped my Caesar salad in my lap out of sheer nervousness, I was back in the bad place Iโ€™d started.

There was a five-second gap, and then the future President gave me a huge grin.

โ€œI hope thatโ€™s a big napkin,โ€ he said.

This wasnโ€™t what Iโ€™d been expecting. The version of Reagan that Iโ€™d carried into the lobby was that of the ex-actor-turned-Governor of my home state, whoโ€™d taken a hard line against protesting students at San Francisco State and was now President Fordโ€™s challenger from the right. And this wasnโ€™t just the consensus on the campus. It was my own considered view based on being a former constituent and coming of voting age in Southern California.

โ€œWhere are you from, son?โ€

Note the reversal โ€” the college junior who had come to interview him was now the interviewee. There was no audience and no notebook out.

He asked what I thought of his time in Sacramento leading the state. I answered honestly: I told him that his administration had been extremely right-wing and against most of what I believed in. In retrospect, that was pretty nervy. But I was nineteen, and it didnโ€™t register. In any case, Iโ€™d been straight with him to his face.

Reagan didnโ€™t rebut me. There was no defensiveness at all. He just asked if I knew about his earlier role in the labor movement as head of the Screen Actors Guild. No argument โ€” just an inconvenient truth, to use a term ahead of its time: cognitive dissonance with my simple view of the man. He let me do my own arithmetic. My grandfather had also been a union man earlier in his life, before he became the chair of FDRโ€™s Federal Power Commission. The watch I was wearing was engraved as a gift to him from his union brethren. Reagan didnโ€™t know any of that, but I did, and the parallel landed.

On the subject of higher education โ€” the project I was supposedly there to report on โ€” he volunteered his views on the flagship University of California system. Many would now view his optimism as anachronistic, but he was convinced the UCs were critical to Californiaโ€™s economic health. It was the same move heโ€™d made with the SAG detail: pragmatic, unbranded, not the stump-speech version. He knew his audience was one nineteen-year-old kid from LA, and he played it straight.

The dichotomy inside my teenage brain: a right-wing governor who once ran a union and talked about a public university system as economic infrastructure rather than an enemy camp. Neither fact erases the easy label โ€” he was a conservative, and he did fight with California college kids. But it was more complicated than I had thought.

I never got the interview. I got something harder to file.


The Pattern I Kept Watching Fail

Zoom out forty-plus years. NSF. The BRAIN Initiative. NEON. Krasnow. A career spent in rooms where consequential decisions about science get made, and where the instinct to label โ€” to sort the players into allies and opponents before the meeting starts โ€” is nearly universal, and nearly always costly.

I keep going back in my mind to that dinner. Reagan didnโ€™t argue with my characterization of him. He didnโ€™t rebut it, didnโ€™t get defensive, didnโ€™t produce a list of counterexamples. He just handed me one fact that didnโ€™t fit and let me sit with it. Thatโ€™s how complicated people actually behave. They donโ€™t refute their labels. They occasionally, almost casually, hand you evidence that the label is incomplete, and if youโ€™re not listening for that evidence, you miss who youโ€™re actually dealing with.

The instinct that made nineteen-year-old me sure I had Reagan figured out is the same instinct I watched policy professionals apply, decades later, to program officers, university presidents, appropriators, and committee staff โ€” with the same blind spot, and sometimes with serious consequences.

At NSF, I watched that same pattern with bemusement, as we fought off an NIH initiative for using PubMed as a data repository on the basis that we had already labeled the White House champion of the initiative as an adversary (clearly, we had no idea what a real adversary at that level would look like), at great political cost. At the time, he had argued in writing that, by sharing data platforms, we would strengthen our position with Congress as good stewards of the taxpayersโ€™ money. We won the battle of the platform โ€“ we went with DOEโ€™s platform โ€“ but lost the war. The champion of PubMed turned out to be a very real champion of basic science research over the long haul. And by turning away from NIH, we left ourselves (especially NSF Biological Sciences) open to the critique that we were undermining the countryโ€™s much larger biomedical research enterprise.

A position on a data-sharing platform isnโ€™t a personโ€™s whole orientation toward science, any more than โ€œright-wing governorโ€ was the whole of Reagan. This seems obvious, stated plainly. It is apparently not obvious in practice.


The Better Heuristic

Science policy runs on multi-year, cross-administration coalitions. You work with people across election cycles, across ideological shifts, across reorganizations that change who has power and who doesnโ€™t. The temptation to fall into the mislabeling trap compounds over time. You stop updating your priors. You route around them at great cost, and you miss out on evidence thatโ€™s sitting square in front of you.

The heuristic Iโ€™ve landed on is simple, if hard to practice: listen for the fact that doesnโ€™t fit, not the one that confirms. A lot of times, a potential ally doesnโ€™t bother to argue back about how youโ€™ve labeled them โ€” they just let the contradiction sit there. If youโ€™re not paying attention, youโ€™ll miss it entirely and walk away thinking your prior was confirmed because it wasnโ€™t challenged.


Back to the Salad

Iโ€™m heading into a new chapter โ€” the union wristwatch now worn by my nephew, more time in Paris, a little more distance from the rooms where these decisions get made. Itโ€™s a reasonable moment to look back at what I got right and what I got wrong, and the Reagan dinner sits near the top of the second list.

I had him wrong. Not completely โ€” the easy-label version of Reagan captures real things about him. But I had him simpler than he was, and I knew it by the end of that dinner, even if I couldnโ€™t have articulated it at nineteen. What I didnโ€™t do, for a long time afterward, was draw the connection between that evening and the professional habits I was developing in parallel: the tendency to sort quickly, to file people under a heading, to stop listening once I thought I knew what I was dealing with.

The salad was embarrassing. The grin and the napkin line were generous. But the real story was sitting right across the table, and I was too busy being nineteen to fully hear it.

Iโ€™ve been trying to do better arithmetic ever since.

The Piggy Bank

I had a plan for neuroscience funding. It meant redirecting money Congress had already promised to someone else. My deputy had a plan too.

I did have a plan for neuroscience funding. It was a piggy bank which had $150M in it dedicated to studying the molecular biology of plants. I coveted a big chunk of that money for the neuroscience programs that I had been brought in to curate and grow. There were two small problems. The first was Congress had created the Plant Genome Program. The second slightly more personal: my deputy at NSF Biological Sciences was its champion. Discounting both problems, I instructed our budget people to move the money for next yearโ€™s spend. I expected resistance. I did not expect what I got.

Letโ€™s be clear. I had been recruited specifically to grow neuroscience at NSF BIO as part of President Obamaโ€™s BRAIN initiative. The mandate came from the NSF Director herself and indirectly through OSTP. My own background at the National Institute of Neurological Diseases and Stroke (part of NIH in Bethesda), was part of the value-proposition from my recruitment that would yield coordination and synergies with NIHโ€™s own ambitious BRAIN plans across all of its Institutes and Centers. The budget move wasnโ€™t freelancing. It was part of my mission.

The Plant Genome program, as I saw it then, was a roughly $150M quasi-congressional earmark with its own community (including some of very close colleagues and friends) and infrastructure. From my standpoint, as incoming neuroscience champion, it looked like an entrenched incumbency in a directorate that needed to better align with the Presidentโ€™s priorities.

This type of budget move wasnโ€™t at all unusual at NSF. Program officers and Directorate executives move money across accounts routinely (an activity thatโ€™s getting a lot of attention these days). So, what I was doing wasnโ€™t structurally unprecedented. But it was extremely politically naive.

I told the budget people to move the money and then I waited.

The budget cycle rolled forward, and the reallocation simply hadnโ€™t taken place. There was no memo paper trail explaining why. There was no pushback at all from my deputy. Itโ€™s just that the numbers were the same as before.

I felt like I was living in an episode of Black Mirror. I wasnโ€™t angry. There was no feeling of being upset at all. It was much more disorienting. When a direct instruction doesn’t produce a result, before you know why, there’s a strange administrative vertigo. You gave an directive. It produced no effect. That doesn’t happen often at the NSF directorate-head level.

I started asking some questions. Not just in my own front office, but throughout the Agency and of my colleagues and friends at universities across the country. And thatโ€™s when a fuller picture emerged.

My Deputy had moved on three fronts. First, she didnโ€™t execute the instruction. I knew this of course, but it became clear that it wasnโ€™t an oversight or a delay. It was her decision. She had decided to play her hand.

Second, she had notified the plant genome community. The scientific community had been alerted that their pet program was under threat. Letters were already moving, calls had been made, informal networks activated. By the time I found out about this second move, the external mobilization was already complete. The fight had left the building without me knowing that there was one.

Her third move was notifying Congress. This move changed the stakes entirely. Going to Congressโ€”even informally, even as a heads up to a stafferโ€”is a move of a different order. It signals that she was willing to invite external oversight of an internal decision that was still nominally mine to make.

What does this mean structurally? Congress created the Plant Genome Program. Alerting them to a threat to it is not merely informational โ€” it is, functionally, an appeal to the program’s founding authority over the head of its current steward. I learned of this, not a via confrontation, but through the budget process and third parties. The absence of a face-to-face reckoning is notable. She didn’t come to me and say I did this. I assembled the picture from pieces.

So, this was indeed the case of the dog that didnโ€™t bark. Here is why that matters:

There was no showdown at the OK Corral. No meeting where I dressed her down or she defended herself. The outcome simply became a fact: the money hadn’t moved, the community was mobilized, Congress had been notified, and the reallocation was effectively dead.

That absence of confrontation became a long-term thing because I chose not to push it once Iโ€™d understood that this was a fait accompli. The external moves made confrontation pointless. This wasnโ€™t a policy battle anymore. It was a political bullfight and Iโ€™d been gored badly. Iโ€™d already lost the plant genome community and with other issues facing the Directorate (like NEON), I couldnโ€™t afford further attrition of my biological community base.

Truthfully, there was an unspoken acknowledgement between the two of us, that the matter had been settled. We both moved on.

I did manage to find a plus up path for neuroscience. The NeuroNex program ended up funding roughly $50M worth of innovative projects aimed to produce accelerative tools for the neuroscience field to move forward within the larger context of BRAIN.

But it didnโ€™t all work out either. As Iโ€™ve written elsewhere, itโ€™s not clear to me that the massive brain science investments have paid off. Certainly, they havenโ€™t to the degree we promised our stakeholders at the beginning.

I’m still sitting with this whole story. There is the chain-of-command question. She went around me, not through me. She didn’t argue with me, file a grievance or resign in protest. She acted unilaterally and externally. And was that so different in kind from what I didโ€”acting unilaterally to redirect a congressionally created program?

And then there is the institutional design question. NSF has checks for exactly this kind of situationโ€”Congress, the scientific community, the budget process itself. My deputy didn’t invent those levers. She used the ones that already existed. So, was that insubordination?

NSF had anticipated me. I had not anticipated it.

A decade later, and long after I have left government, the piggy bank balance is a shadow of what it was. But the bank itself stayed where it was. The plant genome community kept its money. Congress kept its program. And my deputy kept her silence, leaving me to figure out what happened on my own.

The piggy bank is there, unbroken, sitting exactly where I found it.

Offensive: What a Bad Sustainability Plan Looks Like from the Other Side of the Table

Three weeks into a new job, I got blamed for a sustainability plan I didn’t write. It turned out the Board was right to be angry

Iโ€™d been in this room quite a few times. It was on the 12th floor of the old Arlington NSF headquarters and housed a 15-meter-long conference table and chairs for an audience of perhaps fifty. But on this November day in 2014, it was my first time in the hot seat. I was giving a report to the US National Science Board on progress with the troubled iPlant Cooperativeโ€”a large cyberinfrastructure investment of my directorate at the University of Arizona to serve the plant biology community.

Before I was more than a couple of paragraphs into my presentation, there was trouble. There was something called a โ€˜sustainability plan,โ€™ and apparently, the iPlant people had not taken it seriously. As far as they were concerned, the money would keep flowing (from NSF or somewhere) forever. It got heated. I was three weeks into my new job as the head of biological sciences and had no clue that the Board took its oversight role seriously. Iโ€™d spent the previous 16 years as a university institute director (with decanal rank) and had absolutely zero experience with either large cyberinfrastructure projects or sustainability plans.

Under direct questioning, my lack of experience and preparation became obvious. A board member was so angry that she told me to my face, in front of the assembly, that my responses were โ€œpersonally offensive to her.โ€ I apologized, calmly, but she didnโ€™t look appeased.

It turned out that the Board was incensed not only because the plan was badโ€”there was no credible revenue model, no institutional home identified, and no transition timeline. The Board was furious because it was clear that the plan wasnโ€™t serious. Rather, it was a cynical box-checking. If it had been in the present day, there would have been accusations of using ChatGPT. So, it wasnโ€™t a communication failure. It was a substance failure. The iPlant team hadnโ€™t taken the instructions seriously.

It took two more years, but the story does have a happy ending. The iPlant team at Arizona took the feedback seriously and reorganized the project, rebranding it as CyVerse to serve a much larger scientific community beyond plant biology. Crucially, the team brought in leadership beyond Arizona and rethought the value proposition. The expanded team added science-education expertise from Cold Spring Harbor Laboratory and HPC capacity from TACC, the Texas Advanced Computing Center. The NSF remains the key investor, but the funding base has broadened beyond the Biological Sciences Directorate. The focus these days is on democratizing high-performance computing, providing access to US researchers who need compute power but lack it at their home institution. The box-checking exercise from 2014 eventually became a real institutional commitment. And even while I was still at NSF, the results became clearly visible, not only to those of us in NSF leadership, but also to the community.

The iPlant case wasnโ€™t an anomaly. Iโ€™ve watched the same scene play out at two other $50M+ projects since.

How does this happen? Why spend months working on a grant renewal only to deliver a package with a fundamental scale mismatch? What produced the delusion that $10M+/year operations can land softly without years of serious groundwork?

It turns out that most academic scientists donโ€™t plan for endings. At the psychological level, sustainability planning feels like admitting defeat. From a cultural standpoint, the grant cycle rewards acquisition rather than stewardship. And thereโ€™s always the deferral pattern: โ€œWeโ€™ll figure that out in year 8.โ€

All of this results from a fundamental skills gap: excellence in STEM grant writing (what we commonly call โ€˜grantsmanshipโ€™) differs from business case writing. In fact, none of these domainsโ€” institutional negotiation, stakeholder development, or revenue modelingโ€”are present in the science training pipeline. PIs face what Donald Rumsfeld would have called the unknown unknown: they donโ€™t know what they donโ€™t know.

So, what would good look like here? First, on projects like iPlant, with a typical ten-year lifespan, sustainability should be a priority for a dedicated team in year 3, not year 8. That team should include a named senior transition role with real authority โ€” someone whose job is explicitly to plan for the projectโ€™s end, not its continuation โ€” analogous to a Chief Risk Officer. In the NSF ecosystem, a midpoint review should have real teeth โ€” a required external review panel with a go/no-go funding decision โ€” long before things reach the National Science Board for oversight. Finally, there are models worth borrowing from: the nonprofit sector and major research infrastructure projects like CERN and the Vera Rubin Telescope have learned, sometimes painfully, how to plan for institutional continuity at scale.

The Board member who chastised me wasnโ€™t wrong โ€” even if she came very close to ending my tenure at NSF three weeks after it began. She was angered by cynicism born of ignorance โ€” and that sequence matters. The box-checking comes second. The failure to understand why the box exists comes first. Itโ€™s part of why I took the Chief Risk Officer role on my current NSF-funded project seriously.

The problem is very real. All current large-project PIs should be asking themselves what happens to their project when the federal funding ends โ€” and they should have a real answer, not a paragraph of verbiage.

The Board was watching then. Someone always is.

THE SECOND EXODUS

The Vietnam era sent some of America’s best young scientists to Canada. It’s happening again.

Four people with backpacks presenting passports to a border officer at the Canada crossing
A group of four travelers show their passports at the Canada border crossing checkpoint.

Kyoto, Japan, 2016. There was a break between sessions, and I was out on the patio of the conference center venue talking with the President of York University in Ontario. We were both at the STS forum, one of the premier global science policy events, held each October in Japan.

โ€œYou know, most of my most senior neuroscience faculty immigrated from the United States,โ€ he said.

I was pretty skeptical. With brain science powerhouses like Toronto, McGill, and the University of British Columbia, that didnโ€™t make sense.

โ€œSurely, thatโ€™s not the case,โ€ I responded. โ€œCanada is historically a leader in brain research. Look at McGill, alone.โ€

โ€œIโ€™m not talking about all my faculty,โ€ he responded. โ€œJust the most senior ones. They came over during Vietnam to avoid the draft.โ€

That conversation was ten years ago. Now itโ€™s resurfaced in my memory for obvious reasons. Every time I visit an embassy here in D.C., the question comes up about my views on who should be on a list of up-and-coming young American neuroscientists open to emigrating.


I was a teenager in Pasadena when the unpopularity of the Vietnam War and the draft sent a remarkable cohort of American scientists to Canada. Among them were people I knew well: Harvard classmates of my older sister, trainees in my Dadโ€™s Caltech lab, teachers at my school. Many of them werenโ€™t marginal figures. They were disproportionately elites in the STEM labor pipeline, self-selected for their willingness to leave the familiar behind for a principle. Canada didnโ€™t just absorb them; it built around them. McGill, Toronto, UBC, and, yes, York, became genuine centers of excellence in part because of this infusion of talent. And most importantly, many did not come back. After President Carter provided amnesty, analysis from the 1986 Canadian census suggests that of the 30-50 thousand individuals who migrated to Canada to avoid the draft, roughly one-half stayed on. Careers, families, and institutions had taken root. The lesson from this era is important today: a brain drain isnโ€™t a temporary loan. Itโ€™s a transfer of capitalโ€”human, intellectual, and institutional.


How does whatโ€™s happening now connect to what happened in the 1960s and 70s? Then, a single acute shock โ€” the draft โ€” produced a discrete, visible cohort exodus. The border helped: a U.S. driverโ€™s license and a few cursory questions got you across. Physical migration was nearly frictionless, which is why the movement happened quickly and in plain sight.

Today, the mechanism is almost entirely different. Thereโ€™s no single precipitating event โ€” instead, a slow-motion but accelerating pressure system. NIH and NSF funding cuts and organizational disruption to grant infrastructure. Indirect cost cap threats destabilizing university research budgets. Uncertainty around F-1 and J-1 visas is choking the graduate student pipeline. Political targeting of specific institutions and research areas. None of these is like the Vietnam-era draft. But, together, they are changing the calculus.

Also, there is considerably more friction than in the Vietnam era. A lot of it is in the decision itself. Scientists considering a move are embedded in a complex institutional infrastructure: active grants, dependent trainees, and long-standing collaborations. Leaving requires dismantling all of that. But that same complexity means that those who do make the move are deeply committed to staying on after they move.

The cumulative effect is that the expected value of an American academic science career has declined sharply, especially for early- and mid-career researchers. This isnโ€™t a single push โ€” itโ€™s a dozen smaller ones, which makes it harder to see as a pattern, but no less real.


I should be precise about what I mean when I describe my embassy visits. These arenโ€™t casual social calls. Over the past year, I have been contacted by representatives of several foreign governments โ€” European countries foremost among them, but not alone โ€” with a request that has become almost formulaic: could I identify promising young American neuroscientists who might be open to conversations about positions abroad?

The request is always framed diplomatically. No one uses the word recruit. But that is precisely what it is โ€” organized, deliberate, and sophisticated. These arenโ€™t opportunistic conversations at conferences. They are structured efforts, backed by government resources, to identify and cultivate specific individuals at a specific moment of American institutional vulnerability.


Canada isnโ€™t simply waiting for Americans to show up. It has been actively building the infrastructure to receive them. The Canada 150 Research Chairs program, launched in 2017, was explicitly designed to recruit exceptional researchers from around the world and drew heavily on talent from the United States. The Canada First Research Excellence Fund has made major institutional infrastructure investments that give Canadian universities genuine competitive standing. These created an ecosystem in which the positions are not consolation prizes for Americans who couldnโ€™t land a U.S. position but are first-choice destinations.

There is also a factor that rarely surfaces in policy discussions but matters enormously at the individual level: healthcare. American researchers who leave academia lose employer-tied health insurance. Canadian researchers face no such risk when moving between institutions. In a country where a family health crisis can be financially catastrophic, this is not a minor consideration.

The result is that Canada is playing a long game while the United States is, at the moment, folding its poker hand.


The temptation is to imagine todayโ€™s American scientific emigrants as the disaffected โ€” unhappy postdocs, marginal researchers, people who were already looking for the exit. That is not who I am being asked about, and it is not who is going.

The concerning cohort is mid-career: people with established labs, active grants, graduate students, and reputations built over a decade or more of productive work. When they move, they donโ€™t move alone. They take their entire ecosystem โ€” trainees, collaborators, years of accumulated institutional relationships. One full professor emigrating may represent fifteen or twenty years of American scientific investment walking out the door. And the trainees they bring with them, or recruit once they arrive, will become foreign scientists. The pipeline reorients.

The Vietnam parallel holds here with uncomfortable precision. It wasnโ€™t the marginal figures who left and stayed. It was the most able.


This brings me back to the York presidentโ€™s implicit lesson โ€” the one he wasnโ€™t even trying to teach. Many of the Vietnam cohort didnโ€™t come back.

After Carterโ€™s amnesty, some did return. But roughly half had built lives, careers, and families in Canada, and they stayed. The institutions that had grown around them stayed too.

Why would the current cohort be different? If you have rebuilt your lab in Toronto, enrolled your children in Canadian schools, secured stable funding through one of the Canadian funding agencies, and watched from a distance as American science policy lurches from disruption to disruption โ€” what exactly are you returning to?

Political conditions in the United States may eventually stabilize. But institutional damage takes a generation to repair. The graduate students being trained in Canadian labs today will become Canadian faculty. The networks being built now will be Canadian networks. The scientific culture that is quietly relocating will not quietly relocate back.


The United States has long treated its research enterprise as a fixed asset โ€” something that could be drawn down, disrupted, and defunded without permanent consequence. Brain drain is the marketโ€™s verdict on that assumption. Scientists, like capital, move toward expected returns. When the expected return on an American academic science career declines โ€” through funding uncertainty, political interference, and institutional instability โ€” talent moves elsewhere. This is not a political statement. It is an observation about how labor markets work.

What would reverse it? Restored and predictable federal research funding. Visa stability for international students and researchers. A federal posture toward universities that treats them as assets rather than adversaries. None of that is imminent.


I think about the York president on that Kyoto patio, reporting what he had observed without alarm, almost as a casual aside. He wasnโ€™t issuing a warning. He was describing the outcome of a natural experiment that had played out over decades, visible only in retrospect.

I am watching a second such experiment begin, in real time, from an unusual vantage point. And unlike the York president, Iโ€™m not describing it in retrospect.

The current cadre of science policy folks in this country worries about research securityโ€”stolen intellectual property, occult foreign funding, and the like. Theyโ€™re not seeing the tsunami: when the human talent isnโ€™t there, research security is airtight. But there arenโ€™t any discoveries, because there arenโ€™t any discoverers.

THE ROAD TO WASHINGTON RUNS THROUGH SINGAPORE

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How a global roadshow built the political cover for America’s brain initiative

It had been a long haul from Newark โ€” eighteen hours plus, but something is clarifying about the final approach into Changi. The city materializes out of the South China Sea, improbably ordered, all reclaimed land and green corridors, a small nation that has collectively decided to simply will itself into a planned, successful future. I took a photograph out the window with my 2009-era iPhone, a gesture that now looks hilariously lo-fi in my photo archive. It was my first return to Singapore since a childhood trip with my parents, and I was arriving this time not as a tourist, but as a science entrepreneur.

The goal: pitch the Decade of the Mind as a global neuroscience initiative. The thesis โ€” which I hadnโ€™t yet fully articulated to myself โ€” was that the road to funding success in Washington ran through foreign capitals first.

I demonstrated the limits of that thesis approximately twelve hours later when I showed up for my appointment at the Prime Ministerโ€™s office in a business suit.

โ€œLose the jacket and tie,โ€ said the science liaison officer, not unkindly, when I arrived. Equatorial Singapore is always the same: very hot, very humid, approximately the temperature of a sauna with better architecture and excellent mass transit. The boss was in short sleeves when we walked in. The suit, I realized, was doing exactly what American assumptions often do in foreign capitals โ€” arriving with confidence about what the situation requires and getting it wrong.


Why go abroad first?

The state of play in Washington at the end of the 21st centuryโ€™s first decade was this: our Big Neuroscience concept had genuine champions โ€” neuroscientists such as Mort Mishkin and Jay McClelland, and even celebrities like Oprah Winfrey โ€” but it lacked political traction. The idea that we should mount a coordinated national effort to understand how human brains produced the thing we call โ€œmindโ€ was scientifically compelling and strategically murky. Who would lead it? Which agencies would own it? What would it cost? These were questions that tended to produce long meetings rather than commitments.

The insight โ€” and Iโ€™m not sure whose it was originally, though Iโ€™m happy to take credit if no one objects โ€” was that American science initiatives gain real leverage when they can claim global momentum. This is not cynical; itโ€™s accurate. Policymakers respond to the sense that history is moving. A proposal that arrives as โ€œwe should do thisโ€ is a harder sell than one that arrives as โ€œthis is happening, and hereโ€™s where America stands.โ€

Weโ€™d seen versions of this playbook before. The Human Genome Project was in many ways a response to international competitive pressure โ€” the fear that if the United States didnโ€™t lead, someone else would. The framing of a race, even a friendly one, is extraordinarily useful when youโ€™re trying to move bureaucracies. We see this most recently in the context of AI and quantum computing.

The decision, then, was to build genuine international excitement before making the full domestic ask. Not to manufacture enthusiasm โ€” you canโ€™t fake that for long, and scientists especially see through it โ€” but to find the real partners, have the real conversations, and come back to Washington with something tangible.

Singapore was the first stop, and not by accident.


The roadshow

Singapore made sense for several reasons simultaneously. The scientific capacity was real โ€” DSO and A*Star โ€” and the governmentโ€™s receptivity to big science concepts was well-established. Singapore had been making deliberate bets on research infrastructure for years; they understood the genre. There was also a strategic symbolism to starting in Asia. This wasnโ€™t going to be a European initiative with Asian endorsement bolted on afterward.

The pitch itself was a particular kind of performance art. Youโ€™re asking for commitment before you have anything to commit to. Youโ€™re offering a partnership in something that doesnโ€™t yet fully exist. The skill is making that feel exciting rather than embarrassing.

What I was asking for varied by stop. In some capitals, it was matching funding, or at least a signal of funding intent. In others, it was scientific leadership โ€” names attached to something, which is its own form of currency. In others, frankly, it was the meeting itself: a photograph, a letter, a line in a future proposal that said officials in Singapore, Sydney, and Seoul have expressed strong interest.

You learn quickly on a trip like this to tell the difference between genuine excitement and polite diplomatic interest. Both can look identical in the room โ€” the nodding, the questions, the expressions of enthusiasm. Genuine excitement has a different texture: people start proposing things. They say, ” What if we involved Professor X?โ€ or โ€œThereโ€™s a funding mechanism that might work for thisโ€. Polite diplomatic interest stays at the level of the concept. Itโ€™s warm, and it goes nowhere.

I got both. The ratio varied by city.


The cultural translation problem

The suit was a metaphor, but, like most metaphors, it pointed to something real.

Americans arrive at international science meetings with American assumptions baked in. We assume that โ€œglobal initiativeโ€ means something that America conceived and now invites others to join. This is understandable โ€” we have historically been the largest funder of basic research, and the model has usually worked โ€” but it lands poorly in rooms where the people across the table are sophisticated enough to recognize the structure.

What we had to learn, stop by stop, was that genuine partnership required genuine co-creation. Not of the science โ€” the science could be international on its merits โ€” but of the meaning of the enterprise. Why did this matter to Singapore specifically? To South Korea? The answer couldnโ€™t just be that it mattered to the United States.

Later that same year, in Berlin, I heard about a nascent competitive European idea: the Human Brain Project, which was being put forward entirely independently of our own efforts. Folks were happy to hear about our ideas, but they had their own. The European effort would be, in some ways, more ambitious than what we were proposing: simulating the human brain in silico using computational neuroscience models.

In Japan, we heard about a different idea that would take advantage of sophisticated animal models in neurobiology, going beyond the then-dominant American view that a mouse is just like a small human being. The Japanese also had an advantage in using advanced spectroscopy techniques, such as nuclear magnetic resonance.

I left some of those meetings having said things I would not have said, at the time, in Washington. More accurately: I left certain meetings having heard things that changed what I said in subsequent meetings in D.C. This is how science diplomacy works โ€” not as the export of American ideas, but as a genuinely iterative process that changes the ideas themselves.


The leverage moment

Returning to Washington with something tangible is a different experience from returning with nothing but optimism. I had letters. I had commitments, or near-commitments. I had names attached to the concept โ€” serious names, from serious places.

And this, I found, changed the domestic conversation in ways I hadnโ€™t fully anticipated.

When I got back, it was at a dinner with NSFโ€™s leadership that I found real resonance: the host invited us to submit a two-page white paper that eventually made its way throughout the US government. Importantly, the paper had no author. It practically invited any decision maker to adopt it as their own. And, the framing was the global moment.

Part of what international buy-in provides is cover โ€” a way for cautious domestic actors to justify enthusiasm that they might otherwise suppress. The political logic runs something like: if Asia and Europe are interested, we canโ€™t afford not to be. This is not a beautiful logic, but it is an operational one.

The other thing it provides is a proof of concept for the pitch itself. If you can walk into a room in Singapore and make a compelling case, you can probably walk into a room on the Hill and do the same. The roadshow is, among other things, practice.

The Decade of the Mind didnโ€™t become the BRAIN Initiative instantly or cleanly. The Obama administration recast the idea, initially as something called the Brain Activity Map Project. But the international groundwork was part of what made the domestic momentum possible. When the BRAIN initiative finally had its launch moment three years later. it arrived with the credibility that only genuine global interest can provide.


What this tells us about how big science gets done

The official history of a science initiative tends to emphasize the science: breakthrough papers, visionary proposals, legislative milestones. The unofficial history involves an enormous amount of what Iโ€™d call pre-political work โ€” the meetings that donโ€™t appear in any record, the relationships built on conference sidelines, the carefully calibrated sequence of who gets approached in what order.

The international roadshow is one piece of this. It is, at its core, an exercise in creating the conditions for a political decision that hasnโ€™t been made yet. You canโ€™t force that decision. You can make it progressively easier to say yes.

Science diplomacy as a practice is genuinely undervalued and undertheorized. We train scientists to do science and administrators to administer, but the hybrid skill โ€” understanding both the science and the diplomatic register well enough to move between them โ€” tends to be developed ad hoc, by people who find themselves in rooms they werenโ€™t fully prepared for. That ad hoc aspect is certainly how I found my sea legs.

Looking back on the Singapore trip โ€” my suit, their short sleeves, the PMโ€™s office, the iPhone photograph โ€” what strikes me is how little I understood about what I was doing while I was doing it. I had an intuition that the path ran through international buy-in. I didnโ€™t have a theory of why. The theory came later, assembled from the specific failures and specific successes of the trip itself.

Which is, I suppose, how most things that work work. You do the thing imperfectly, and then you understand the thing.

Fundraising for Science

They are buying the label on the bottle

Bottle of X Vineyards Reserve Cabernet Sauvignon wine from Napa Valley on a wooden table
A bottle of X Vineyards Reserve Cabernet Sauvignon proudly displayed on a wooden table.

โ€œThis is not my wine,โ€ announced the billionaire as he sipped from the elongated crystal goblet that our university president had just poured. It was his wine. I had pressed my local distributor, a 30-something Virginian with a name straight out of Gone With The Wind, hard to find a case of his stuff. The plan had been to celebrate his promised big check in support of the Institute with a dinner at the Presidentโ€™s house, and his red wine would be the guest of honor.

We were all horrified. Our university president presented him the bottle, with his label, X Vinyards, prominently displayed.

โ€œOf course it is,โ€ the President said.

โ€œNo, this is fraud. This is not my wine.โ€

I focused intensely on my shoelaces. In my mind, I wasnโ€™t at the Presidentโ€™s house. I was 500 miles to the north at my Woods Hole lab bench, working out the role of protein kinase C in sea urchin development. I wondered how fundraising for science had come to this.

โ€œMr. X,โ€ letโ€™s try some white, no? Thatโ€™ll go with the first course, I think.โ€ Distracting him with Chardonnay was my plan.

Disaster, right? Actually no. The check cleared three weeks later. A big one. And it was unrestricted.

What had just happened in that dining room wasnโ€™t a near-disaster. It was, in retrospect, a perfectly normal evening โ€” just with the subtext briefly visible.

Here is what I think major donors are really buying. Not the science. Not the graduate students who will spend five years chasing a result that may never arrive. Not the state-of-the-art equipment, the postdocs, the administrative overhead that your development office will explain in careful detail. They are buying the label on the bottle. They are buying the wing with their name on it, the lecture series, the endowed chair, the wall plaque that they think will outlast everyone in that dining room. The Institute exists, in their imagination, as an extension of themselves โ€” a form of biological immortality dressed in the language of public good.

Your job, as Institute Director, is to make that narcissism feel like generosity. To them, and honestly, to yourself.

This is not cynicism. The science is real. The graduate students are real. The results โ€” when they come โ€” are real. In neuroscience, my field, some of those results can save lives. But the transaction at the center of scientific philanthropy is a negotiation between two kinds of legacy hunger: the donorโ€™s need to be remembered, and the researchersโ€™ need to do work that matters. An Institute Directorship is, among other things, the art of holding both of those needs in the room simultaneously without letting either reveal the reality of the other too clearly.

Nobody teaches you this. There is no course in graduate school called Asking Rich People for Money in the Service of Science. Your thesis advisor taught you to think carefully, to doubt your results, to follow the data wherever it went. That person, your mentor, had no idea what an Institute Director does on a Tuesday afternoon.

What you learn, slowly and mostly by humiliation, is that federal funding and philanthropic funding are different games with different rules and different currencies. There were many times when the audacity of asking for a lot of money in a personal, one-on-one context led me to disaster. On one occasion, the donor started laughing at the ask. It was two orders of magnitude too small. On another occasion, the donor glared at me and remarked that they had thought we were just having a friendly conversation about science, not money.

At NSF and the NIH, the currency of the realm has been peer review โ€” you are accountable to your scientific community, and the process, whatever its flaws, is fundamentally about the work. In the world of major donors, the currency is relationship. The science is the framing context; the relationship is the product. You are not making a case to a peer review panel. You are making a person feel that their money will become part of something larger than themselves โ€” and that you, specifically, are the right steward of that transformation.

This requires a particular kind of split attention. The version of me that spent years at a lab bench, working out how molecular signal transduction works in a living cell, had to be held in reserve โ€” not abandoned, but kept somewhere safe. In contrast, the other version of me learned to read a room, manage an ego, and pivot to some white wine when necessary. The bench scientist and the Institute Director are not antagonists. But they are not quite the same person either.

The BRAIN Initiative taught me this at scale. Billions of dollars, multiple agencies, the White House, and, somewhere underneath it all, the actual neuroscience. Keeping those things in productive tension โ€” thatโ€™s the job. The wine dinner, Mr. X, was just a smaller version of the same problem.

So, what do you do with all of this?

The honest answer is that you get good at it, and getting good at it changes you in ways that are hard to fully inventory. You learn to pick up social cues in the first seconds of a conversation. You learn that silence from a major donor is not the same as a no. You learn that the ask, when it finally comes, should feel inevitable โ€” the natural conclusion of a relationship that both parties have been carefully tending, even if only one of them knew thatโ€™s what was happening.

And you learn, eventually, to make peace with the transaction. The donor gets their label, their legacy, their wall plaque. The Institute gets the unrestricted funds that quietly multiply into something a directed gift never could. The graduate students get their five years at the bench. Some of them produce results that matter. A few of those results, in a field like neuroscience, find their way into treatments and into lives that are measurably better because the science has been done.

That is not nothing. That is, in fact, quite a lot.

But I still think about that dining room sometimes. The crystal goblet. The bottle with his label on it, the wine he grew on his own land, and his absolute certainty โ€” in the face of all evidence โ€” that it was not his. What he was really saying, I think, is that the label was never enough. That what he wanted was something no check could buy: the certainty that the thing bearing his name was genuinely, irreducibly his.

Scientists understand this feeling better than donors know. Every result we ever cared about felt that way โ€” earned, irreplaceable, ours in a way that had nothing to do with money.

We just learned, some of us, to work with people who express it differently.